Moment of Weakness

Just wanted to share so when I looked back one day, I know what was going on. AND IT IS BUGGING ME till I let it out.

For once a month, Nick had to put up with my emotional outburst. I get extremely sensitive and became more demanding and less tolerant. Initially, it confuses him and then it got him upset and we fought like mad cows.

But after a couple of months, he becamme attuned and realized, it is just this period.

So lately, he just let me be.
Sure we argued for a couple of minutes. But after a while, he will just smiled or laughed at the ridiculous thing we are fighting about and then he will reach out for me and said, "I can't stay mad at you for long" or "I forgive you, I know its just this period of time".

Today was once of those days.

Yet today was one of those days that my cramps gotten quite bad. So bad that it is making me pale and I could feel I was going to black out.

We made our way back from AMK to home and because I was in a irritable mood and he was tired, we fought and kept to ourselves.

My cramps got worse and so my mood. Like I am hurting quite badly yet Mr Nick Li high and mighty there kept to himself because he was annoyed at me.

Obviously that escalate to a point when I finally reached home, lay down on my bed and I said, "Nick, I don't think it is working out anymore".

Of course it got him upset and we continued fighting. He asked, "is it a moment of truth or moment of anger?"

Then I realized it was a moment of weakness.

In a moment of weakness, I gave up.

It seems so much easier to give up when one is weak; physically & mentally.

I have since said sorry to take back what I have said but theres a part of me that is eating me.

I am fine dont worry! It is really one of those times.
This incident cannot fight with those previous incidents when we both gotten so upset with each other. Those previous incidents are really...

In any case, I just thought I would share and so one day when I read back I will reflect and know that...

Know that ...

_______________________ (will fill it in when I can think of something).

I just wanted to share.